I love advice. I love
to hear what people think I need to hear and I love to read all the volumes
upon volumes of self-help books that are guaranteed to work all these amazing
miracles – for someone. I’ve repeated
all the mantras….”you must love yourself before you can love another”….”cease
all expectations and gain everything”….you create your own reality.”
Ok, there are some of those that I believe whole-heartedly,
like the one about creating our own reality.
I’ve come to learn that reality is subjective. No, really!
If you think life sucks, guess what?
It’s gonna suck. If you think the
world is out to get you, you’re gonna actively work to find evidence to that
end, and it will look very much as though the world is indeed out to get you.
But I digress…..
I talk a pretty good talk, I think. Life is actually fairly decent these days. It’s not perfect, but it’s not awful. I am still single, and it’s something I’ve
been reflecting on a lot these days, but it’s not just the “single” thing.
I don’t have any really close friends right now. You know, someone you can share secrets with
and talk about anything under the sun. I
have friends that I CAN share secrets with, but I see them so rarely anymore,
through no fault of our own. Work and
relationships take folks far away sometimes.
The internet is grand and all, but there’s nothing like being able to
sit down face to face with someone and share a laugh over something stupid.
I’ve mentioned before about having walls up to protect
myself from the pain I’ve experienced in the recent past. Damn those things. They’ve managed to finagle themselves into
such a position that I find it difficult to be close to anyone anymore. That sucks.
Ok, yeah, so I had some bad crap happen and some people I trusted hurt
me, but I can’t let that dictate my life.
It’s just one small part.
“Do not feed today the leftovers of
yesterday. Today has teeth and is hungry. Feed today what you want it to be and
let it become that.”
What he said.
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